A Lollypop or a Bullet?

I miss coming to berko to see you, and getting lost when meeting you.
I miss sitting on your bed and watching skins and laughing at your ocd over you music.
I miss you introducing me to your friends; sitting in Costa or the bloc.
I miss going to your house and nearly getting savaged by your cat.
I miss it when you say something to me that you think is perverse and then ask if I'm okay.
I miss our phone calls; you giving me advice or me giving you advice.
I miss you telling me stories about people that i don't even know.
I miss your hugs, you room and your 'green' jumper.
I miss coming to yours and sitting in your room while you eat.
I miss your parents asking me if i want any dinner.
I miss you helping me walk through stinging nettles.
I just miss you!
You are my best (boy) friend and i have not seen you in what seems like forever :(
There are two people that I miss so badly it hurts.
I would do anything to talk to them or see them one last time, but their death makes that impossible.
I can only hope that you two are happy and are still around somewhere.
I hope you can hear me say 'I love you' every night before I go to sleep.
I know you would not want me to cry but it is hard I just miss you so much it is unreal.
I cannot believe that you are actually gone, I still think to myself "I'll make some cakes for you" or "Nan will want to see this"
The dolly that i made you is in mums room now and I cry whenever I see it because I know that you loved that so much; just because I made it.
You would have been so proud of me when I got my results back because we always use to joke about how I'm thick.
Nothing and no one can fill the hole in my heart that you two took with you
I'll miss you everyday for the rest of my life.

I love you.