i dont think i have ever felt so lost in my life.
and no one wants to listen.
i now feel like i am losing someone whom i love so so much because we have not spent nearly enough together over the past year when we use to be inseperable.
i just cant catch a break.

It still hurts to think about you.
It also makes me sick and angry.
I dont think this is something i can just think 'fuck it' and let it go.
I am happier without the greif and confusion you caused.
Yet i miss feeling wanted.
Never again will I trust someone like you.
Never again Jess, Never again.

I dont know if i ever want to fall in love.
seems scary.

Ok, now I have stopped feeling sorry for myself I feel a lot better.
I still don't forgive you though, and I never will.

..

I thought I had been treated badly in the past, I thought that I had felt as much hurt I could possibly feel.
but this, this hurts more than everything i have been put through before.
Just for one stupid night I feel like I have lost everything that I had built up over the years.
At first I just blocked it out, and now that reality has set in I feel crushed, and the more I think about it the more things I pick out which proves to me how little you care about me.
I feel so weird.
FUCK IT.

so. i'm 17 today. i don't feel any different really.
i'm determined to make sure this day is good, i'm not going to let you get me down.
but let me say this; the fact that your getting all smug about the fact that someone you don't even know 'likes you' shows how shallow and pathetic you really are.
seriously mate get.a.life.

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY :D

To be honest, I never saw you a the 'player' type and I am never usually wrong about things like this but you proved otherwise. Turns out that you are so transparent, I can't believe that I didn't see it before.
I pity you in a way, because you must be so insecure about yourself and how people perceive you that you feel that you can't stick to one person, you have to have attention from more than one person to make you feel good? even people you don't like? it's quite pathetic.
or am I wrong about that as well? is it that you just crave attention?
but let me tell you this my friend, things like this don't go down to well with me.
Also don't try sucking up to me now, I'm not a sucker for cheap flattery.

You really shouldn't have underestimated my ability to find things out.