I feel really sad today, I hate being sad.
It's not the sort of sadness someone can snap you out of by making you laugh or being nice.
I can barely explain it, you feel it internally; you feel sick and your stomach feels knotted like your on a roller coaster you hate and you can't get off and you get a bad adrenaline rush.
It makes me feel drained also, like the only thing today I wanted to do is lay in bed and be left alone.
That is no way to deal with sadness so I went out, even though I felt pretty miserable I tried to have a good time.
My mum kicked off my sadness last night talking about my Nan and Grandad and saying that they are not around anymore they are dead and gone and that's it.
I don't believe that.
I am not religious nor do I want to be.
I don't know what I believe in, but my main thought is that you go onto another life (I hope that's what happens)
I also think that your 'spirit' is around somewhere.
I find it very hard to believe that my Grandparents are actually gone I doubt I will ever believe it.
It's 7 months since my Nan died on Tuesday and it's also 4 months since my Grandad and I still don't accept it.
I just get on with it really there is no point moping around about it but I do get days like today every so often
It makes me appreciate my friends even more.
It's not the sort of sadness someone can snap you out of by making you laugh or being nice.
I can barely explain it, you feel it internally; you feel sick and your stomach feels knotted like your on a roller coaster you hate and you can't get off and you get a bad adrenaline rush.
It makes me feel drained also, like the only thing today I wanted to do is lay in bed and be left alone.
That is no way to deal with sadness so I went out, even though I felt pretty miserable I tried to have a good time.
My mum kicked off my sadness last night talking about my Nan and Grandad and saying that they are not around anymore they are dead and gone and that's it.
I don't believe that.
I am not religious nor do I want to be.
I don't know what I believe in, but my main thought is that you go onto another life (I hope that's what happens)
I also think that your 'spirit' is around somewhere.
I find it very hard to believe that my Grandparents are actually gone I doubt I will ever believe it.
It's 7 months since my Nan died on Tuesday and it's also 4 months since my Grandad and I still don't accept it.
I just get on with it really there is no point moping around about it but I do get days like today every so often
It makes me appreciate my friends even more.
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