I dont know if i ever want to fall in love.
seems scary.

Ok, now I have stopped feeling sorry for myself I feel a lot better.
I still don't forgive you though, and I never will.

..

I thought I had been treated badly in the past, I thought that I had felt as much hurt I could possibly feel.
but this, this hurts more than everything i have been put through before.
Just for one stupid night I feel like I have lost everything that I had built up over the years.
At first I just blocked it out, and now that reality has set in I feel crushed, and the more I think about it the more things I pick out which proves to me how little you care about me.
I feel so weird.
FUCK IT.