A Lollypop or a Bullet?

for the past couple of weeks I have been able to write pages and pages about my life, and how I have been feeling. It has made me feel a lot better.
I'm not a depressive person, I am generally happy but I am human and I have been through a bad year and there is no one that I can really talk to. So I'm going to start a journal so I can never forget what I was thinking and feeling at that moment in time. I'm also going to write about what I will do this year, not quite resolutions but something that should have been done before. So this is what I am going to do and the reasons for it.

• Race for life- Grandad I'm doing this for you.
• Get a car- My freedom.
• Go to Rome- To fulfil a dream of mine.
• Do well at college- University here I come.
• To protest against animal testing- To stand up for something that can't fight back.

thats all i can think of right now. i'll post anymore if i think of any.